Island Girl

I am experiencing cabin fever in the middle of summer. To think that we actually went out yesterday. I am not feeling good in a way that I want something but I don’t know what that is. The husband asked me what I want so he could help in any way he could but how can I tell him anything if I do not know what I want in the first place? I hate feeling this way. I have tried interacting with my family. I read several books with the little man. I helped the husband while he was doing something earlier. We talk, we ate, we plan what to do, but I am still left feeling sad and unsatisfied. I hope this will go away on its own. Perhaps all I need is a nice long nap (since food did not help) and maybe tomorrow I will fell better. I hope.

The husband and I both love the beach. We agree that the beach is the best place to relax and unwind. When we lived in the south we used to spend our days on the beach either walking or just lazing under the sun. On special occasions we go to our favorite resort to spend weekends. Sometimes it is just the three of us but there were times we invited his older kids.The days were mostly spent roaming the beach and playing games at the game room which the little man enjoyed so much. We had fun in our four year stay in the south and if I am honest about it, we all miss the beach and the lifestyle we left behind when we decided to move to the country. There are days when the little man would put his flip flops on and say let’s go to the beach. Or he would ask us where is the beach. It has been months since we moved. Since then we have not been back to the south to visit because even if we do like to we can’t what with the expenses that comes along with a trip that far. Besides, the husband said should we have the resources, he wants us to go somewhere else anymore. He said we have conquered that particular area of the south, now it is time to look for another place to go. Somewhere we have not been yet. Like California. Or North Carolina. The way things look right now, North Carolina is a good bet especially since it is a bit closer to home. We have heard of good feedback about North Carolina, specifically Outer Banks hence we would like to go there one day when we can. I have often encountered ads about Outer Banks vacation rentals and I think it is worth to try one in the future. If the rental property look anything like the one pictured below then, yeah, we would love to spend days maybe weeks if we can afford it.

Who would not want to spend leisure days in the beach with this one considering it has all the amenities a family needs while on vacation? Promoted by Carolina Designs, this beach house boosts a view of the ocean, an outdoor pool, a game room, two master suites, a hot tub, and more. We have only looked at lovely houses lining up the beach front in the south and I will be lying if I tell you all that we did not want to be in it no matter how short the stay will be. To stay a week in such a gorgeous house near the beach will be heaven for us and a realization of a dream albeit a short one. I guess it is time for us to start saving so we can go and discover Outer Banks.

A friend is going on vacation to the Philippines. She informed me about the trip weeks ago and just yesterday asked me if I wanted her to bring some presents when she gets back. Of course I do. I already told her two items I want her to bring if she still has space in her luggage. She said I could actually ask her for six items. Six! But I could not think what I want save for the two I already asked her to put on her list. I told her if she could give me time which she graciously agreed. I hope I will be able to think of other things for her to bring back from her trip. I am clueless as of the moment. I actually told her she could just share whatever she brings back and I will readily accept what she will offer. I could not afford to be choosy, you see. She is very gracious enough to ask me if I wanted some things and to ask more than that is I think too much. I will be happy with what she will come up with. And grateful. I hope her and her family will have a safe trip and an enjoyable stay in PI. I sure envy her because I would like to spend a few weeks there myself but money is tight at the moment (it always is, to be honest lol) so any thoughts of trips is just that, thoughts. And plans. I am just lucky I have generous friends. Two years ago her cousin did the same thing to me which I am still grateful. Maybe when it is our time to visit PI we will bring them stuff too even if it is still far ahead in the future.

We stay home most of the time because it is a fight to go out with the little man. He would rather stay home and play with his toys than go out with us. He is only three, mind you, but he already knows what he wants. Although there are times he is agreeable to going out especially if he is bored or we bring a favorite toy, most days he says no to going out. It gets complicated when we have to run errands. But even if he would rather stay home, that does not mean he does not like to go out the door. He also has this bad habit about opening doors when somebody knocks, a habit we need to put a stop for safety purposes. We have to be vigilant because we never know when he takes the notion of opening the door and staying in the porch to play. It is not safe since we live near the road and being young as he is he does not know anything about safety. I have tried talking to him but the concept is foreign to him at the moment so it is almost futile. We will never stop talking about safety though until he learns it. For now, it will probably be safer if the house we live in has an exit alarm so we will know if anybody opens the door to go out. But then it will surely cost money. We cannot afford that much so one of us has to keep an eye on him while the other is busy. I am telling you, it is a tedious task but do it we must.

I have plenty to do tonight. A small table is loaded with vegetables that I need to put away. This needed to be done two days ago but I have tried to put it off no matter if the husband has been reminding me constantly to do it. I just don’t feel like doing anything right now. I would rather stay online or read a book. I know I have to do something sooner or I will get a lecture from the boss, lol. How I wish there is somebody else to do this thing for me. I would really appreciate that.

We went to the store today to buy a glass crock to use for our plan to make sauerkraut. I did not know we could buy jars that big but we did but before we did it I asked the husband if he could call his aunt if she has a jar available. He said she might but it might also be old and he is concerned it might have lead content and we do not have available lead test kits to check. He said he would rather buy it from the store just to be on the safe side. We bought a 2-gallon jar hoping it will be enough. I have looked up a how to guide in making kraut and we will see what happens next. We could not decide whether to chop the things or shred them. Well, if nothing else we can always boil cabbage and still come up ahead, lol. We will see.

The husband told me to help him look for our tax records because he needed it for tomorrow but I ended up looking at old pictures instead. He kept on urging me to look some more and I kept on telling him my mind is blank and so I sat in the floor laughing at the old goofy pictures we took of ourselves. I even let him look at several pictures and he started saying he looked a lot older than he was four years ago. I do, too. If you look at me now you will not think I was a cute little thing (lol) a few years back. Back then I thought I was fat. You should see me now. Or I should have had an idea of what I will look like and I would never have called myself fat then. I also found pictures of the little man when he was still a sweet and slobbery baby. We laughed at his pictures and forgot about looking for the important documents. When we got done and I was getting the pictures back in the bag, the husband yelled that he found what he was looking for in the only place we did not look. Go figure! Just when we were about to give up too. I think it helped when we quit looking because then we were not as eager and desperate to look for the document which gave us more time to think. I am glad he found what he was looking for or he would have been a bear the rest of the evening. Everybody happy!

…fell on my shin when I opened the freezer. It dropped where I had an old bruise and I thought I was going to pass out. It hurt so da** much I wanted to hit the husband who I knew put the block of cheese inside the freezer door. He was present when it happened and he was speechless while I was making up all kinds of cuss words on my head. He then said he did not mean it to happen and that he was sorry. I know he was not at fault but I still wanted to hit him if only to make me feel better. I rearranged every pack and container in the freezer and told him to do the same next time he could not wait for me to put things away to avoid accident. I think what we need is another freezer. I hope it does not happen again.