Island Girl

Remember a few posts down I talked about working out and getting in shape? The enthusiasm turned out to be short lived. The laziness struck again. It feels good to do the work out but when I think about having to do it every day (I have not done it in three days) I feel tired. Besides I don’t think it is working. The weighing scale is telling me I lost two pounds but when I put on my clothes I still see the bulge on the tummy area and the clothes are still pretty tight. I am disappointed that I have been doing sit-ups and minor exercises before and during the workout yet nothing seemed to happen. This evening I asked the husband once more that the next time we go to the store I will definitely get fat burner pills to take daily. When I get out of this negative mood perhaps I will go back to working out again but still take the pills and maybe this time I will see fast result. I really really want to lose weight. I can’t keep on buying clothes because that will be expensive not to mention it is unhealthy to be fat. I have been there before and I did not like it one bit. I hope I can do it this time.

It is a stormy day in the South right now. It rained all day which put a stop to our plan to go out and run errands. The little man is sound asleep and I don’t blame him since it is really a good time to sleep when it is raining outside. He looked out the window earlier eager to see what is going on and I told him one of these days when he is a little older we will play in the rain like what me and my cousins did when we were young. He is a lot younger now though and I don’t want to run the risk of him getting a cold. It is so quite here now with him asleep and the husband lying down beside him. I actually fell asleep with them earlier but I had to get up to eat since I was starving. Such bad timing, eh? I have been in front of the computer since watching Taiwanese drama while playing Freecell and surfing the internet at the same time from Philippine news to insurance quotes to Memorial Day sale coupons (I know I am two days late but I was still hoping for some deals.). The husband peeked on me just now to check what I was doing and see if he can entice me back to bed with him and his son but it is a bit late for that. The little man might wake up anytime soon and I would only get a headache if I try to go back to sleep. Besides the Taiwanese drama I am watching right now proves to be a good one so I am going to finish watching it. I love rainy days sometimes

I have used the workout CD that I bought from the store the other day for two consecutive days. It was fun and tiring at the same time. The little man watched me doing the routine and yelled “sidewalk!” to me, lol. He is funny. He laughs when I make mistakes which is not good for my pride. Hays, kids do know how to make their parents feel inadequate I just proved something, my hand-body coordination is nonexistent. A simple walking and raising the arms at the same time took me a while to perfect. No wonder my PE subjects in school were low. Would you believe that I have only learned how to do sit-ups after I gave birth? Used to, I cannot even lift my body up to do one. I don’t know what went wrong there. I guess determination is a key. I am determined in getting back in shape that I am capable of doing things I could not even do before. It does feel good after every workout. I hope I will continue to do this. Just now I am starting to get lazy. I am using the little man as an excuse for not working out. After all, he is using the television watching Dora the Explorer and we only have one.

While I was at the check out counter at the store today, I saw a work out DVD. When I looked at the price I decided to put it in my cart. Guess how little much I paid? Two dollars! Yes, you read it right. I was at Big Lots which is known for its close out prices so it was not really a surprise. There was a Thomas and Friends DVD for six dollars that I wanted for my son but he already has plenty of kid’s DVDs so I opted to get the work out DVD for myself. I did not get both no matter how cheap that was because I am exercising control over spending nowadays. The husband put it on when we got home (he must really want me to lose weight, lol) and I did a little “power walking” which really looked so easy but when they started lifting their arms I found it complicated. Either I am very out of shape or my body coordination is non-existent. The little man laughed at me, would you believe that? I di it for a few minutes because I needed to eat. I have to do a fifteen minute work out a day every day to see if this will work. I will update you all if this work out really works. The husband surprisingly knew the woman in the video. He said she is already in her prime yet she still looks good. Let’s see if this girl here will look good after doing the routine from the video. I am excited!

I did an internet marathon today. I watched Korean drama while playing with the little man. How was that for multi-tasking? It took me a long time to finish watching the series because of a lot of interruptions but I had plenty of time so I did not rush. We stayed home this morning because it stormed and we did not want to get caught in the middle of it so we decided to wait until it passed. I did a lot of online searches today from video scandals in Youtube to educational materials I could get for the little man to Phenphedrine. It is very clear I had plenty of time in my hands especially when the little man took his nap. I already told the husband we need to be more social so this does not happen often, lol. I enjoyed what I did though and he seemed to be excited with the facts he unearthed online. So I guess it was a productive day for us. This is our idea of fun

Nothing much is going on here. The husband asked me where I wanted to go because he said he can’t take being coped up in the house anymore. I want to go to the mall but I know he is not up to it so I did not tell him. We can’t go to the beach without ending up annoyed with the little man running straight to the water. I miss the walks on the beach. We have not done that for months now. Anyway I told him we will think of a place to go, maybe a park, after the little man’s doctor’s appointment. He is due for his well-baby check up later this afternoon. That is if it will not rain since it looks like it is going to storm here. If only we have the money we could go somewhere else, perhaps another state. We could go to Vegas and stay in a motel just to break from our routine. Surely there are affordable Las Vegas hotels we can stay in. Oh to be able to travel at whim without financial worries. It sure would change things in the D household.

I have not been sleeping good for the last few nights now and it is taking its toll on me. I am so sleepy during the day and yesterday evening I crashed while I was trying to make the little man sleep. I did not wake up until two hours later which is rare since I don’t take naps at all. The husband attributed it to the full moon. He said that a lot of people get restless at night on a full moon hence the lack of sleep. I don’t know what is causing this sleepless nights but I hope it will go away. I need to sleep good to keep up with the little man during the day. As I am typing this entry I am about to doze off. I bet the little man likes what is happening because he tends to get his way when I am sleepy just to get out of an argument. Such a shame. I could not make this a habit.

I don’t know what is going on with me. I am so impatient when it comes to losing weight when I am not really working too hard. Two weeks ago I started doing some sit-ups and a few exercises here and there to hopefully lost weight but except for a day where the weighing scale showed I lost two pounds, it doesn’t seem to work. Especially since the next day the weighing scale showed I was back to being two pounds heavier. How cruel was that? I am still doing the same exercises and am trying my best not to eat a lot. If nothing else I may really have to start considering taking new weight loss pill and see what happens. I am tired of looking at my fat self in the mirror. I am uncomfortable with my clothes and I feel miserable when I think about how fit I was three years ago. I need to summon all kinds of self discipline if I want the plans to work.