Island Girl

The stepson signed up for an apartment for him and his ladylove. His mother cosigned for it since he is only 19 years old and with not enough credit history. Good thing he had a good amount from his tax refund so he was able to pay for deposit and other fees. Well, that was done two weeks ago and he is still living with us. His wife sometimes visits and stays and then runs back to her parents’ house. We have urge them to move out after all they are paying for the apartment and the electric is on and it will be perfect for them to have their privacy since it is almost impossible to have it here with the little man following them around and trying to get in their room. But they are finding every reason in the book not to move out. Ridiculous ones I should say like being sick, having to go to work, or to go to school, or just about anything. It was funny at first because it is apparent that both are having cold feet probably with having to pay their own bills and to keep house and all that shiz but it got old when we realized that it has been going on and on. If the above reasons are basis for not moving out then they might as well not move out anymore since this has been a cycle. I mean the stepson gets sick whenever he knows he has to shoulder some responsibilities. And he has to go to school and work at the same time. He has been doing that before he got married anyway. Even the husband who was not ready to let his son move out is doing his best to let the kids know that this is the life they chose then they should live with it. I personally don’t know what is going to happen to this two but I hope they will move out. Not because I am being mean but because they are going to have a family. They can’t rely on Daddy all the time because Daddy did not brought this upon themselves. They did. So I hope they will start to be responsible and stop living in la la land.

I was fuming mad yesterday. My laptop was acting up and I thought it was going to crash. The reason? The stepson used it and opened websites and downloaded songs. I knew because I noticed the speaker plugged in it (I never use the speakers.) and when I asked him he admitted it in a rude way. I was pissed but I was tired from the trip so I let it go. A day later though I was ready to hit somebody. Good thing he was in school or it would have gotten ugly. I was so angry that it seems intentional when he used my laptop to download songs when he has his own computer. It might have crashed again so he used mine instead. I don’t know how he knew of my password but I have changed it since then. I am not taking chances again. Thankfully, he is moving out this weekend. I don’t have to deal with this sh** again. I am really trying to be good but when somebody messes (and then tears up) my things then that is when I get nasty. This is the reason we each (him, the husband, and I) have our own computers in the first place. Some people are just rude and irresponsible. The husband at first blamed my virus protection because he said if it was good this would not have happened. I shot back telling him I have used the same virus protection for over a year and I visited websites but it held good. It is when one visits sites he knew caused his computer to crash that was causing problems. I still feel angry when I think about it but the husband said if worse comes to worst he will have to reformat my laptop which prompted me to save all pictures and documents in a CD so it will be safe for now. Hay life, makabuang!

I have done a lot of driving for the last few days than the whole of last year. It is high time I get in action and make sure I will get my license should I decide to pursue it this year. They say practice makes perfect. I am not aiming to be perfect, I just want to be a good driver so I can drive anywhere I want to, when I have to. I think I am doing good since I can feel the confidence building within me. I used to hesitate when I am in a tight spot but not anymore. Like what the husband said, the minute of hesitation can have dire consequences so I have to act fast and safe. I found out I like to drive in the interstate because I can drive in a monotonous speed and I don’t have to worry about cars just popping up in front of me out of nowhere. I hate parking though, lol. Still have to work on a lot of areas but I can proudly say I am getting there. Hell, three years ago I almost had a nervous breakdown when the husband made me sit in the driver’s seat and told me to put the car in gear. I have come a long way both literally and figuratively

Two posts down, I complained about being uncomfortable because of things I ate. Well, I am happy to say I am feeling better. Yes, only a few days and I am already good. I had to get back to my normal diet which is cooked rice and whatever viand is available at the moment. No more beans or milk or cereal or oatmeal. Just food I am used to eating that did not give me any bad reactions at all. I even stopped eating yogurt even if I still have two cups left. I guess I will let these expire so I can throw it in the garbage. It is unfair not being able to eat food I want any time but then nothing is fair anymore, right? My body is more important because if I am not feeling good I can’t function well and I do have a family to take care of. I am so glad to be myself again And if I am honest, I think my family is too.

I was looking at our pictures the other day noticing the changes in the way we look through the years. I used to look innocent and worry-free while the husband looked younger than his age. Fast forward years later, we both have the same tired look, lol. Marriage and parenting do take a tool on some people. Coupled with worries and problems here and there, the result is quiet evident. Well, he still looks good to me and to some women who stares at him when we are in public. He sure looks good may he be wearing either casual clothes or formal clothes like the tuxedo he wore on his friend’s wedding. He tells me I look better but I can’t say so myself. I have gained weight. I have wrinkles from staying under the sun on summers and I have that constant frown now especially when I am annoyed, lol. So much has changed on how we look but I can say this with certainty, nothing much has changed with the way we feel for each other. True, there are bad times but the good times prevail. We are just getting old and it is something we can’t stop no matter how we deny it sometimes

I feel uncomfortable right now. I don’t know if I am bloated or my stomach ulcer is acting up. I know I should not have had cold cereal a few days ago but my body was craving for it and then there was the oatmeal. Did I say I have lactose intolerance too? Pain! I am in pain and I can’t do much about it right now but wait until my body gets rid of gas naturally. Am I grossing you out? Forgive me. I just have to write about it here so I will feel better. At least I have the anonimity the blogosphere can afford to give me. It sucks! The last time it happened it lasted for two weeks. You would think I have learned my lesson but no. I blame it on stupidity food.