Island Girl

I will be having the baby in January. That is what my doctor told me. She said since I had C-section before, it will be easier to do it the same way with the next baby. I think she is right. I am too small to do it normal and I did try it before but it did not work. It is easier but not cheaper. We will just have to think of it as part of having kids and raising a family Anyway, the husband, if he gets his way, wants us to go on a vacation before I give birth. He said we will be confined home once the little bundle arrives because it will happen in the middle of winter and I do need to stay home to recuperate. He has been looking at Branson vacation packages because he has never been to Missouri but I doubt we will be able to go yet. We do need to buy a few baby items and from what I have gathered, most of the items we need are expensive. If nobody will help us buy any of it then we will have to shoulder every single thing. The planned vacation will probably have to happen months after the delivery. I know we will go somehow but we do have to prioritize right now. Unless of course somebody comes forward and pays for it then we surely will go. Anybody?

The husband looked at me real hard the other day and blurted out that should I not slow down, I might just have a huge baby. I know he noticed that I am growing bigger by the day and I am only 19 weeks pregnant. I also dread what I will look like when I am on the third trimester of my pregnancy. My pre-pregnancy clothes are starting to get tight but my maternity clothes are a bit bigger still. I will have to do something about this. I know I have been eating a lot lately. I can’t help it, I am hungry all the time. I should start to portion my food though so there is no danger of eating too much. I told the husband to help keep an eye on me and tell me if he thinks I have had enough food. He said he will which I hope is true. He does not want to embarrass me but I think that is what I need to quit eating too  much. We will see how this works out. I may need to start walking again like I did on my first pregnancy. It should help with my metabolism too.

Staying at home all day has its bad side. Right now I am itching to shop while trying to convince myself that I do need the things that I am thinking of buying. Like a camcorder for instance. I have not taken pictures of the little man for a long time because he will not pose for me anymore so I thought a camcorder will be handy. I don’t need him to pose for me with a camcorder. It can go on while he is doing his thing inside the house or when we go out. Next on my list is a crib for the new baby. Now that we really need since the little man tore up his crib (don’t ask me how). I figured we also need a bassinet, infant carseat, toddler clothes (for the little man), and stuff for me. When you add it all up the amount is staggering which is making me sick just thinking about it. I should be relaxing right now but here I am torn between giving in to my whim and worrying about finances. This is not healthy. I should do something else but then that something will be food. Hays! I need a job or a new hobby that does not cost money.

I went to the store to look for maternity jeans in preparation for the coming cold months. The jeans are expensive and I doubt I will get any on sale but then it is a must for me to own at least a pair so I will not freeze this winter. I did not buy any yet but I already know which store to go that has jeans that are close to my size. Most stores have maternity jeans that are so big it is almost unreal. I mean, I know I was very big on the third trimester of my pregnancy with the little man but I was not huge enough to wear anything that is big even for my plus sized mom. The jeans that were labeled medium were so wide there was no way it would have stayed on me no matter how big I get. Thank goodness there are still stores that have more realistic sizes and I will go back there when I am ready to wear maternity jeans. As of now, I am still wearing my pre-pregnancy clothes although I already have my maternity clothes out for when I need them. Also, while I was at the store, I looked at boots for me and the little man. I saw really cute and what looks like really comfortable ugg boots that I would like to buy when I am ready. You would ask why I did not buy any of the mentioned items yet while I was out? Well, I just don’t need them yet. I know they will be there still when I am ready for another shopping trip. Besides, that will give me reason to go back to the mall

Today I craved for chicken wing barbecue and when I told the husband about it he said he was craving for grilled pork so we decided to buy a pack of chicken wings and a pack of pork chops. I have this trusted recipe site which offers almost accurate versions of the food I like so I went online and copied their recipe for marinating the wings. The husband opted for the easiest way, poured soy sauce on his chops and let it soak while waiting for the grill to get hot. I did not plan on eating the pork because for some reason I don’t like the smell and the taste much since I got pregnant but he offered me one piece and when I tasted it I was not able to stop myself. I ate the grilled pork chop paired with rice with gusto and was so thankful that the husband made the offer. For some reason, it seems like he knows me more than I do, lol. I saved the wings, which did not disappoint, for supper. I still have leftovers to eat tomorrow. I don’t know what we will crave in the next days but today was good enough and we are satisfied.

The living room is. The little man remembered his educational DVD’s that I have boxed up and asked me to get everything out so he could watch each one. And he has been watching the videos over and over again, alternately that is, which is a good thing because he learns from it. The only problem is like most toddlers, he does not clean up after his mess. He leaves discs, boxes, magnetic letters, markers, and activity books all over the living room carpet. It gets overwhelming to me so I clean up but mere minutes later the carpet is covered with the same things. He even has his chairs on the room with him all upside down for some purpose. It gives me headache thinking about it but then I would rather he do this than be online where he could watch age inappropriate videos. At least I know the videos we have are all child friendly. It is almost like he dominates that area of the house. We used to have table lamps on each side of the couch but since he unscrewed the switch and broke one of the shade in it, the lamps have been in hiding to recuperate. I am not losing hope that one of these days the lamps will be back on its own place though. Maybe after ten years? Lol. And that the little man will eventually learn how to pick up after his mess. But for now I will just have to pretend that the house is not littered with toys that are sometimes deadly to adults.

I am experiencing cabin fever in the middle of summer. To think that we actually went out yesterday. I am not feeling good in a way that I want something but I don’t know what that is. The husband asked me what I want so he could help in any way he could but how can I tell him anything if I do not know what I want in the first place? I hate feeling this way. I have tried interacting with my family. I read several books with the little man. I helped the husband while he was doing something earlier. We talk, we ate, we plan what to do, but I am still left feeling sad and unsatisfied. I hope this will go away on its own. Perhaps all I need is a nice long nap (since food did not help) and maybe tomorrow I will fell better. I hope.

The husband and I both love the beach. We agree that the beach is the best place to relax and unwind. When we lived in the south we used to spend our days on the beach either walking or just lazing under the sun. On special occasions we go to our favorite resort to spend weekends. Sometimes it is just the three of us but there were times we invited his older kids.The days were mostly spent roaming the beach and playing games at the game room which the little man enjoyed so much. We had fun in our four year stay in the south and if I am honest about it, we all miss the beach and the lifestyle we left behind when we decided to move to the country. There are days when the little man would put his flip flops on and say let’s go to the beach. Or he would ask us where is the beach. It has been months since we moved. Since then we have not been back to the south to visit because even if we do like to we can’t what with the expenses that comes along with a trip that far. Besides, the husband said should we have the resources, he wants us to go somewhere else anymore. He said we have conquered that particular area of the south, now it is time to look for another place to go. Somewhere we have not been yet. Like California. Or North Carolina. The way things look right now, North Carolina is a good bet especially since it is a bit closer to home. We have heard of good feedback about North Carolina, specifically Outer Banks hence we would like to go there one day when we can. I have often encountered ads about Outer Banks vacation rentals and I think it is worth to try one in the future. If the rental property look anything like the one pictured below then, yeah, we would love to spend days maybe weeks if we can afford it.

Who would not want to spend leisure days in the beach with this one considering it has all the amenities a family needs while on vacation? Promoted by Carolina Designs, this beach house boosts a view of the ocean, an outdoor pool, a game room, two master suites, a hot tub, and more. We have only looked at lovely houses lining up the beach front in the south and I will be lying if I tell you all that we did not want to be in it no matter how short the stay will be. To stay a week in such a gorgeous house near the beach will be heaven for us and a realization of a dream albeit a short one. I guess it is time for us to start saving so we can go and discover Outer Banks.