Island Girl

Since my online friends are into getting fit and healthy, I thought I might do the same. I have started walking on the treadmill again. I even made vegetable and fruit juice to supplement my diet. I have started doing some crunches but realized that the hard floor is too hard for my back. I have been scouring online stores for yoga mats because I think it might just be the thing I need if I want to continue doing crunches which is supposed to be good for my midsection. I have not been very lucky though. I am waiting for a sign that says, look here cheap yoga mat!, but I have not found one. My definition of cheap, of course, is less than five dollars so I will have to look harder, lol. I am currently using an old comforter to support my back. I really hope the crunches will work and that I am doing them right.

The husband found this supposed treasure while him and his younger sister were walking in the backyard. I was told this is called a scraper that the American-Indian used before the onset of technology. I was also told that they used to reside in our nick of the woods, years ago. When I asked what did they scrape, nobody can actually tell me for certain. I could research online but I have not really done it. He also found an old arrowhead a few days before that. His sister who is into things like in the picture was thrilled and could not wait to explore our yard again. They only walked that day because it was cold and rainy so she said she will be back when she can, when the weather is beautiful, to see if she can find some more treasures. She was content that day to bring home a turtle they found near the creek for her girls to keep as pet.

The last time the husband’s older son was here, he was looking for Mogami cables. He muttered about needing it for something, or it could be somebody else who needs it. I am not sure. When he comes to ask for stuff like that, I leave him and his father alone because the husband knows better what his son wanted and to give them time to talk about things, no matter how mundane. They always call me when they could not find anything. As it turned out, he did not find what he wanted. I don’t even know if we have what he wanted to begin with but since I know nothing about cables, I let them be after telling them where to find a box full of spare cables. His father told him he will have to either look somewhere else or get them at the store.

The husband is back to talking about going back to live near the beach. He is so adamant this time that I am afraid he will just leave things as they are, tell me to pack our things, then go. We have been discussing this option since the year we moved to the country but there was no definite ring to it, not until this year. We moved because of financial reasons. We are still not financially sound but he said that he would rather be broke but close to the beach than broke but is hundred of miles from it. One can hardly argue with that especially if one is missing the beach as much as he does. I am having mixed emotions right now. I so want for us to move but I don’t want to give up the little property we have here in the country. I will miss having a big yard and a garden. He assured me that we will talk about it some more, maybe plan on when to go to check the place he wants us to live and if he thinks it is somewhere where there is opportunity for the family, then we will go. I am glad that he is talking about a trial period because I would like very much for us to be very sure about the place before we put in roots. This plan could happen this year or maybe next year. There is no definite time frame but I know it will happen.

Some people are lucky because they can play musical instruments. I have always been jealous of people who can do it. I have the enthusiasm but I do not have the talent which is the most important thing, I think, in being able to play a musical instrument. Don’t get me wrong, enthusiasm is good. It helps a person do things. But talent is another matter. A person with talent plays musical instruments better, in my opinion. They give life to any musical piece they play. That is why I am jealous because I would really like to be able play, even just one musical instrument. I could not, however. And not for lack of trying. I could blame it on genes but I will only sound bitter so I will not. This (lack of talent) does not stop me from hoping that my kids will someday, out of the blue, develop a talent for playing a musical instrument. Nor does it stop me from looking at musical instruments like guitars, flutes, violins, and, even cello at wwbw even knowing that I am a hopeless case. But, I did say I am hoping my kids will suddenly develop talent for playing musical instruments, right? So it is best to be prepared.

The husband must have known, without me telling him, that I wanted to shop because he told me to get ready as early as I can so we can go out. I did not know where, he just said out. I was happily surprised when he brought me to the mall. I was able to roam around by myself while he took care of the kids. We then went to the flea market and the Dollar Tree, two of my favorite places to roam around primarily because the items are cheap and also because I always find something in these places for the kids to play with. I did not buy a lot of things, I just enjoyed being alone while looking at displays. It is nice to be able to do this every once in a while, it relieves stress and boredom. He said the kids were good which was a good thing because he normally cannot handle these two when they start whining and looking for me. He said they were like angels. I would have loved to see that but I needed the time to myself. Thank goodness for me-time.

When the husband asked my parents’ permission to marry me, he promised them that we will get married in my church in the future. It will be in the future because we had to get married without my parents in attendance. We have not made any definite plans of a church wedding, we just know it will happen. We are not in a hurry, we are married legally and we are happy. We just want to make my parents happy that is why we want to get married in church. To be honest, I do not know how to plan a wedding. It seems very complicated to me that I do not even start to think about how to do it. I can very well talk about wedding plans and getting married in my church in the future but that is all there is. I can probably help pick the husband’s wedding ring (should he decide we get new ones) because there are a lot of wedding rings for men that are available to view online or in stores. I can even help pick my wedding ring. But planning the big event? I will have to pass. If money is not an issue, I will definitely hire a wedding planner so somebody will stress about everything and I will have somebody to blame should things do not go the way it is supposed to. That being said, I am looking forward to walk down the aisle to my groom even when we are old to be doing it.

It has been a while since I shopped and I am itching to do it. I do not need more stuff but I want to buy bras from Victoria’s Secret. Two, to be exact. Also, I want to buy denim jeans from Old Navy for myself and for the kids. The husband is a Levi’s guy so he is not included on the Old Navy list. What else? Lotions. Specifically, hand lotions. Soaps to be put on a balikbayan box. I want a wristwatch. Then there are electronics I want to have even if I do not need it. My mind is full of things, material things, that I want to buy just when I know that money is going to be tight because of bills that need to be paid. I have not talked to the husband about what is in my mind right now (I normally tell him) because I know he will just feel guilty for not being able to provide for my whims. He gets stressed so I keep it all to myself. If that does not work, I write it down here so you all know. I am hoping this compulsion will go away on its own without me spending a dime. I am keeping my fingers crossed.